It’s been a long time since I wrote on this blog and so today, I thought I would share with you the thoughts that passed through my mind when I read psalm 143.
Verse 1 (NKJV) :
Hear my prayer, O Lord,
Give ear to my supplications!
In Your faithfulness answer me,
And in Your righteousness.
Remember how when you read some verses, you kinda predict the next verse?
When I read this, I thought David must be asking God to avenge him or something. But the next verse surprised me.
Do not enter into judgment with Your servant,
For in Your sight no one living is righteous
I was surprised because it made no sense. David was obviously asking God for mercy. But he is also asking God to answer this prayer in His righteousness. The very righteousness that shows how much he has fallen short and makes him worthy of punishment.
But David is doing the right thing here.
In psalm 143, David asks God for mercy ( v.1-2), laments his present distress ( v.3-4), Looks back and longs for God (v.5-6), and goes on to ask God to help him, give him an answer, teach him, deliver him, and finally ends the psalm by saying that he is His servant.
The more I read it, the more I could see how sincere David was. I could see him, the great man he was from his youth, respected and revered by everyone, falling down on his knees. He is humble here.
Do you know what I see here?
I see a David who is throwing away his righteousness and holding on to the righteousness of God. He knew that all the things he did for God, great as they were, were nothing in front of God. As he says and I quote : For in Your sight no one living is righteous.
He comes to God as a servant, a person for whom, the master is by who he is known. He finishes the psalm by saying, ‘for I am your servant’. He was saying, God I am your servant. I find my value in you. So today, as I ask you to forgive me, show me mercy and change me for the better, I am not going to make the foolish mistake of counting before you all the good things I’ve done. I am going to ask you to answer me in your righteousness.
Today, as Christians, it is easy for us to focus on our love for God. The very perspective that sometimes makes us think why some things happen to us. What did I do to deserve this?
The Christian walk is about God’s love for us, not our love for him. If he had not loved us first, we would never be able to love him back. And everything comes into perspective when you focus on His love for you instead of your love for him. That is where pure freedom exists.
When I read this psalm, I could feel relate in a very special way. There are days I mess up so bad that I fall on my knees and cry out ‘God I’m so sorry. I messed up’. And in the tears that fall on the ground as I lie there crumpled on the floor, I can see the reflection of his love. ‘Son, this is not about your love. You don’t have to cry. I still love you. I love you so bad I sent my Son for you and looked away as he suffered on a cross’
If you go back a few posts, you can find a post called ‘Is God Disappointed in You’. I recommend you read it too.
If God still loves us when we sin, doesn’t that mean we can do what we want?
No! it doesn’t work that way. When you mess up and you go to him and you say, ‘God I am so sorry’, he draws you into his perspective. Repentance does not mean you live a life where you never sin, it means a coming back to the perspective of God, a perspective that helps you see sin for what it really is, which in turn, gives you the strength not to sin.
Maybe, you are on your knees today, asking God to forgive you.
Maybe you are asking why you deserve something bad that is happening in your life.
The Christian life is lived when you fix your eyes on His love and not on your love. Sometimes we don’t know why some things happen in our lives. We feel like we don’t deserve them. We might not, but it may not even be a question of whether we deserve it or not. Since God loves you, he will always love you and he brings things into your life not to destroy you, but to build you. In the end the story could never be any better. And when you focus on his love and not on your love and your righteousness, it helps you to thrive through the pain.
I hope this helped you. I would love to hear from you. God bless!!!